You know that soul sucking tired that makes you want to give up? The kind that sleep doesn’t help? Yeah, that’s my problem right now.
And I’m angry. So. Fucking. Angry. And I’m not sure how to not be angry. Do I get to be angry for awhile? Will the anger fade away over time? Does it require a sincere apology and some time? I don’t know.
I’d love to hear from folks that have been through this internet cheating shit. Both sides of it – I’ll try not to be a bitch to the perpetrators. I need to understand how people get over it and why people do it. It may or may not help me to move on… I’m not even sure what moving on would look like. Do people actually get through stuff like this intact? Do they always split up?
I don’t know why I stay right now. I’m beginning to think that it’s because I’m stupid.
Well, you know I know.
Yes you get to be angry.
Yes the anger will fade.
The anger is consuming and it’s best not to make life altering decisions while the anger is peaking.
The anger can be your friend.
There is much strength in the anger.
Use it.
All that. We need wine.