Trying to get fit and stay sane…

I've been working out for about a year. I have three levels of torn discs and effed up feet from birth defects and being fat. I've lost thirty pounds in the last year by using a recumbent stepper. Today, I thought I'd mix it up. I'm a little less heavy and a lot stronger so … Continue reading Trying to get fit and stay sane…

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I’m so stinking tired…

You know that soul sucking tired that makes you want to give up? The kind that sleep doesn't help? Yeah, that's my problem right now. And I'm angry. So. Fucking. Angry. And I'm not sure how to not be angry. Do I get to be angry for awhile? Will the anger fade away over time? … Continue reading I’m so stinking tired…

To the woman private messaging my husband..

I get that you dated him for five whole weeks THIRTY years ago and that he somehow broke your heart. High school is like that. But marriage is hard enough without people like you inserting themselves in to the equation. Add to it that we deal with catastrophic injuries, PTSD, TBI, cognitive disabilities and all … Continue reading To the woman private messaging my husband..

I thought That I needed to Change…

It's funny, I've gone several different directions with this blog over the years. As a wounded warrior's wife, why I stay, after wife... Each time I changed tack I felt that I had to "hide" the previous part of the journey because it wasn't relevant. Today, I realized that it is *all* relevant. The good, … Continue reading I thought That I needed to Change…

I wonder if it will ever completely stop…

A friend posted a link to her Facebook wall a couple of weeks ago. I read it, knowing that she had recently extricated herself from her emotionally abusive marriage to a wounded warrior. And in it, I saw quickly that I could have written at least part of it. That realization brought me up short. … Continue reading I wonder if it will ever completely stop…

When it doesn’t make sense.

Today has been a struggle to remember why I stay. Some days love just isn't enough when PTSD is involved. Loyalty, tenacity and fight are the things that make me stay on days like these. Loyalty because you don't kick someone when they are down. No, he isn't taking care of his mental health right … Continue reading When it doesn’t make sense.